vendredi 29 mai 2015

Right here right now


Now is the perfect time to be happy, to do whatever you want to do, to be whoever you want to be.
Don't wait for tomorrow, it will never come. There's only Now.
Live. Love. Laugh. 
Life is perfect.

If what you need is a friend that feels sorry for you, pardon me but I'm not that friend.
I am your friend and I love you but I won't feed the vicious circle of self pity.
I was caught in it for way too long and I'm not going back there.
I am a hopeless optimistic, always have been. 
It made it actually worse when I was feeling down because I kept thinking it would get better and when it didn't it crushed me. 
The thing is, it didn't get better because it never would. 
Life doesn't change, it's your perception of it that does.
So when I finally felt better, things hadn't actually changed, I had changed. 
Life is never good nor bad, it just IS and you feel good or bad about it, but it's only a perception. 
You can choose to look at it one way or the other. You can go through the exact same experience at two different times in your life and be happy about it the first time and angry or sad the next. 
So I'll say it again. 
Life is perfect. 
This exact moment is perfect because it is as it is, and it couldn't be any other way.
If my being happy makes you angry or sad I'm sorry, but I won't stop being happy because of it. 
I won't sacrifice my happiness to make you feel better. Not anymore. 
I used to do that a lot, sacrificing my happiness trying to please people. But it never made anyone happy and I was definitely not either.
I realized I can't make anyone happy, only they can. And nobody but me can make me happy.
So there I am, happy.
I love you, no matter what you think of me right now and how you see me.
Never doubt for one second that if you need me I'll be there. 
But I am going to stop trying to reach out to you because I can't make you come to me. I can't be next to you through your hard times unless you want me to. 
So I am here, with open arms and open heart, and I'm not going anywhere.
If you need to talk I'll listen, if you need to cry I'll hold you. 
But do know that I'll probably say something along the lines of :
"Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end".

Life is perfect. Embrace it.

mercredi 27 mai 2015

Bliss

It feels good to come back to this blog, read all the "dark" stuff and realize I'm finally through. That's it. I'm happy.