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Highs & lows

Earlier today i was feeling like that :

♫  It's just another one of those glory days
Jump out your bed, shake your head, clear the haze

Step out your house and prepared to be amazed    ♫

But deep down these days I feel more like that :

Another rough patch. One of those times where I feel lonelier surrounded than I do when I’m actually alone. A time when I find myself struggling with the overflowing river rushing from my heart to my eyes. I swallow, divert the waters to my stomach and smile. And I go on. But I can feel that I’m disappearing. I’m becoming invisible. I can’t even see myself anymore. I don’t know who I am. I know who they see, I know how to please them, or annoy them, but I don’t know how to be,  how to be me, and who me even is.

Sometimes I just feel like crying for no reason. I'm not even this sad, it just feels like crying would feel good. But I have to keep a straight face and it's having no one to confide in and keeping it all in that makes me sad in the end. I just have way too many feelings that need to get out. I need to love. Like, I have the physical need to deeply love people, but they are not used to being loved so strongly, it's weird. I just want them to be fully themselves, and to allow me to be fully myself. But it feels like it's the hardest thing to find these days, someone to be yourself with.

Life, I love you, but I wish I could hug you sometimes because loving you can be very lonely.

"People think you want them to do something or say something special. You don't... You just want them to be themselves so you can be yourself." - John Lennon